Covid made sure I felt more alone then I already did.

I was called back to be told I’d had a partial molar pregnancy.

This was the loneliest I had felt during our two years of being under the care of fertility services.

Even though I have my happy ending, I am not the same woman I was 3 years ago.

Though we have lost, we have also loved. And for that alone, we are mothers.

I am forever grateful for this service and the amazing lady who answered my call to help me when I couldn't help myself.

If I can let another woman or couple know they are not alone it makes a world of a difference.

I write this honest account and share my raw and painful experience in the hope that it gives others who are suffering some validation that they are not alone in their thoughts and feelings - and that whatever they feel is ok

'Birthdays in Gilead', a poem.