I am physically and emotionally drained. I never understood what someone goes through losing a baby doesn’t matter how far along it’s your baby.

The last 3 years we have been trying to get pregnant. The last 3 years we have been seen, tested and advised. The last 3 years we have lost 8 babies, all lost at 8 weeks or before.

I’ve found the loss of not just the babies, but all the plans and hopes and dreams we had surrounding them, the most painful to process.

We feel so very sad, we just want our little grape back and to continue with the pregnancy that we both so badly wanted.

Even though it happened so long ago I still feel the pain even now.

I really felt maybe we could have been the lucky ones that managed to watch our baby grow... but unfortunately that wasn’t the way it was meant to be.