14 April 2017

14th April. The day I found out I was pregnant with my second child, two days before my first born’s birthday. A week later it ended in a miscarriage. 3 weeks later I found myself in the early pregnancy unit of my hospital with abdominal bleeding due to a ruptured fallopian tube. The pregnancy had been ectopic.

Have thought about it so much, more so in the last few days as I have miscarried again (confirmed not ectopic). It hurts so much. I have opioid painkillers I take just to get high so I don’t feel anything.

This year I will… I’m not sure but I’m taking it day by day. I plan on finding a new job, I plan on starting the gym, I plan on spending more time outside with my son. I plan a lot of things but I’m not sure I’ll do any of it.

 

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