29 April 2011

When I first found out I was pregnant, I thought I would burst with love and pride. I started eating well, keeping myself healthy.

No matter how hard I tried, you were never meant to be held in our arms. On the 29th April 2011, I woke up at 5.47am to find myself losing you. It was the single most heartbreaking thing I have ever been through. It destroyed my world.

But one positive came from this tragedy… On the 29th April 2012 at 5.47am I gave birth to your gorgeous little sister. She is our ‘meant to be baby’, our reason to get up every day.

I will never, ever forget my first pregnancy but will treasure my daughter forever.

This year, as I sing happy 3rd birthday to Freya, I will light a separate candle to remember the baby that I was never meant to hold. I just hope Grandma is there looking after you.

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