12 October 2014

Nikki after the Wirral Half MarathonOn 12th October 2014 I ran the Wirral Half Marathon to raise support and awareness for the Miscarriage Association. It was my first half marathon and I found it really tough but I was delighted with my time of 2 hours 10 minutes.

My journey started 7 years ago when I lost my first baby to a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks. We were devastated but told that it was highly likely it was just ‘one of those things’ and wouldn’t happen again. Sadly it happened twice more. Both times we’d seen heartbeat at 9 weeks but by 11 weeks the baby had died. All of the recurrent miscarriage tests came back negative – there was no reason for my losses. It was the most horrendous time and I genuinely believed I would never have a baby.

My 4th pregnancy was extremely stressful as I was convinced something was going to go wrong, but it didn’t, and in January 2009 I gave birth to my gorgeous, healthy daughter who is now 5. Sadly I had two more losses after this but my 7th pregnancy resulted in my second beautiful daughter who is now 2. Now I have my two daughters, and my family is complete, I can look back more philosophically. After all, if I had not had 5 losses I wouldn’t have the two amazing girls I have now. But while you are going through miscarriage it is a living hell and I will never forget our 5 angels.

Going through miscarriage, particularly recurrent miscarriage is such a stressful, emotional, devastating time, and one thing that is particularly hard is that people don’t like to talk about it. It is such a taboo subject but I believe it shouldn’t be. For me, talking has always helped. This is one of the reasons I wanted to do something to raise awareness of miscarriage and of the wonderful work the Miscarriage Association do.

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