To me, she was very real and I had a feeling she was a she.

The due date on our first pregnancy.

You had already left an indelible mark.

Covid made sure I felt more alone then I already did.

I hope you find comfort in my words. You are not alone.

I was left on a treatment bed on my own as partners can't come up to the wards due to Covid.

I do not know how I feel about future pregnancy now as it is still too raw, but I do hope one day we will feel ready to try for our rainbow baby.

I entered into a new group of womanhood, those who had experienced the pain of miscarriage, and I came out wiser and stronger.

My heart had carried me away with thoughts of the baby who I would love.