November 16th 2021 I did a pregnancy test and to my absolute surprise it came back positive. My partner is in the navy, so that night when I finished work I video called him to tell him the amazing news we’d been dreaming of. I’ve never seen his face light up so much, he couldn’t wait to be a dad just as much as I couldn’t wait to be a mum. I was roughly 6 weeks when I found out.
I suffer from anxiety already, so I’d keep telling Shaun ‘I can’t be excited until the 12 week scan’, but obviously there I was already planned our future with our growing baby.
December 30th 2021 we had our first scan. I always had this feeling that something wasn’t right, a gut feeling that wouldn’t go away. The lady said ‘I’m sorry but it looks like you have miscarried’. I had no signs of miscarriage, no bleeding or spotting, I went in thinking that was a good sign.
We were absolutely devastated, our dream had been crushed just before New Years, when we were planning to tell everyone.
It’s took a few weeks but I’m starting to feel positive that it will happen for us and we will try again, however I will never forget this pregnancy and the happiness it brought us for that short time.