Of everything I’ve wished upon,
I wished for you the most
I prayed that I would someday count
Your fingers and your toes
I hoped that I could keep you safe
Until the day we’d meet
And that I’d get the chance to kiss your tiny hands and feet
I fell in love the second
I found out that you were there
Someone somewhere up above
Had answered all our prayers
At 7 weeks I saw you,
As you were just settling in
And that’s when the beautiful reality of you
Really started to begin
I saw you 3 weeks later
Your hands and feet were bigger
I never got to hear your heart
But cried as I watched it flicker.
Our plans had changed for the better
Now we’d be a family of four
Your daddy me and your big brother had bets on who would love you more
My hopes for you were set in stone, and
My love for you even stronger,
My heart broke beyond measure the day they said that yours wasn’t beating any longer
All the plans that we had made for you
All changed in the blink of an eye
Although I hadn’t met you yet I wasn’t ready to say goodbye.
Goodbye to all the memories
That we had yet to make
Goodbye to all the ‘I love you’s
We had yet to say.
I know you’d have your mother’s eyes
And have your daddy’s smile
And be just like your brother
Both beautiful and wild.
I’ve seen you in my dreams,
I’ve even held you in my arms
But in my dreams I was able
To keep you safe from harm.
I carried you within me
Even just for a short time,
But neither time or tide could change
The fact you will always be mine.
You were and are as real to me
As the stars are in the sky,
So it’s just a see you later
Not really a goodbye.
I will hold you in my heart for life
And keep you by side
Until I can hold you in my arms
When both our worlds collide.
We will cherish the time we could have had
And wish that we had more
And someday beyond that horizon
We will be a family of four 💙💜💙💜